The Learnings of a New Wife

Our first Sunday here, a 40-day fast was announced, starting the very next day. Thai and I looked at each other and laughed, “We just got here!” Now three weeks into the fast, trying not to notice the infamous KC Barbeque places we pass regularly—and we’re so grateful we chose to participate. I am confident the deep things God has been doing in us is closely related to our fasted heart before Him.

One huge blessing that has blossomed in my heart has been in my character as a wife. In my single young adult years, I learned to grow content with Jesus, so much that I grew a bit self-reliant. Yet in my initial months as a new wife, just 164 days into marriage now, I have been challenged with what it means to rely, deeply trust and even submit to Thai, really love him as unto the Lord.

The Lord is guiding me into a new attitude from a blend of my selfish pride dying, and my perspective of Godly leadership to growing to trust and rest in yielding to Thai’s role as my husband. Not that Thai is bossing me around—he is incredibly graceful. But just to be okay when his preferences are different than mine. Not holding that against him or keeping score of who gets their way at every fork in the road we encounter.

Honestly, this is just the beginning so I am not totally there yet, but when I actually walk in God’s leading, my heart feels the freedom to rest, and not be uptight or count tally marks inside my head.

-Ange-